Inside My Head

Finality

This was the original post I wrote, but never finished after our final failed IUI. I wasn’t going to post it, but after re-reading it and writing my real infertility wrap-up, I decided it might have value. I hope you enjoy it. It was Italy. We had a ton of sex. Why wouldn’t we? This…

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Moratorium

Here it is: Our last IUI attempt didn’t work. We are done actively trying to have kids for now. We cannot put ourselves through any more heartache, so we’re declaring a six month moratorium on any and all family planning discussions and decisions. I wrote a whole thing about this (that I just re-read) and…

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Thankful

As you certainly already know, tomorrow is Thanksgiving. On my previous website, we used to celebrate this holiday by inviting readers to make insane choices between something they’d like to eat, someone they’d like to have sex with, and something they’d like to drive. We’d award prizes to those with the most correct answers. On…

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Halloween

There’s nothing quite like Halloween to bum you out about infertility. I used to love Halloween. I loved everything about it – the candy, the dressing up in weird costumes, the merriment, the freedom from obligation of gift giving – just fucking everything. Halloween was the greatest. Yet the last two Halloweens I haven’t done…

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Stressed

I haven’t written much lately, and the reasons for that are several. I outline them below, and offer up a few items for discussion. This will likely be the only update this week as well, and with me going to Italy next week, things will likely be sparse around here for the next couple of…

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Trash

As much as I might hate certain teams, (and I do) I’m done trash talking any of their fans. I just don’t have it in me anymore. And truthfully, I never did, anyway, so it’s not like this is any great loss. But I realized very acutely after this weekend just why I don’t talk…

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Thirty-two

Having set this up earlier this week, let’s dive right into it. I used to call this feature “Songs to Close Out Your Summer” when I wrote it for Cru Jones Society, and I think I was probably a bit too optimistic regarding my ideas about its impact on the readership. “Oh hey, I’ve been…

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Mix

I made my first birthday mix CD by accident. Since that night, I’ve made one every year since, and I used to write about the selections. Last year, I had no outlet, so I wrote no article about it. I still made the CD, which felt a little weird, because this CD is usually a…

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Learnings

This week’s series of posts chronicles how I lost 40 lbs. Each day is dedicated to a different aspect of that process. Today’s post is part 5 of 5, and it covers all the weird shit I learned along the way. Undergoing weight loss means you learn a bunch of random shit about yourself. As…

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Exercise

This week’s series of posts chronicles how I lost 40 lbs. Each day is dedicated to a different aspect of that process. Today’s post is part 4 of 5, and it covers the essential uselessness of exercise in terms of weight loss, but why you should do it anyway. I like to exercise. I feel…

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